Just noticeable difference

In the midst of a few hundred superintendents, principals, curriculum coordinators, and teacher-leaders like myself, there is the rapid-fire exchange of ideas and inspiration. We hail from 16 different states, but we all speak the same educational jargon. We make tongue-in-cheek jokes about ADHD and difficult parents. We feel our minds and hearts refilling with the belief that we can reach all students. The flurry of conversation and interaction is almost non-stop and my mind busily races from one spark of insight to another.

And somewhere behind it all, barely above the differential threshold between subconscious and conscious thought, is the constant, pleading drone: Please, let this work.

Edited to add: I forgot to drop the most important update – we're a full GO for this cycle! I start Lupron on Saturday.

20 Comments

  1. JuliaKB on December 11, 2008 at 12:32 am

    I often catch myself thinking remarkably similar things on exactly the same topic.
    Are you a go this cycle, or are you cooling your heels?



  2. Nancy on December 11, 2008 at 1:24 am

    I couldn’t believe how many times I sung the lyrics to the smiths “please, please, please, let me, let me, let me. Let me get what I want this time.”



  3. Nancy on December 11, 2008 at 1:25 am

    HEY! I was suddenly able to comment! Holy shit.
    (did you get my email?)



  4. Moxie on December 11, 2008 at 5:48 am

    I got the email you sent me a couple of days ago about the commenting (which I thought I replied to), but if you’ve sent another since then, I didn’t get it.
    I personally went to the Typepad office and said, “Hey people – if Nancy and Wishy-Wish can’t comment, there’s going to be hell to pay when I go all sista-girl ghetto on you, so fix it. NOW!”



  5. Moxie on December 11, 2008 at 5:48 am

    I’ve never heard that song, but I will surely look for it when I get home this evening.



  6. Moxie on December 11, 2008 at 5:49 am

    Whoops! I forgot the best update of all! We’re a go for this cycle! I start Lupron on Saturday!



  7. Carrie Holmquist on December 11, 2008 at 6:34 am

    I’m here chanting it as well, “Please let this work for them”



  8. SCY on December 11, 2008 at 6:51 am

    Yeeha for the go ahead on the cycle!!!



  9. Kristin on December 11, 2008 at 7:04 am

    Woohooo…so glad this cycle is a go!



  10. Shelli on December 11, 2008 at 8:01 am

    Yay, for a go this cycle!



  11. Calliope on December 11, 2008 at 9:13 am

    HURRAH for a go!!! So so exciting!!
    do you have estimated ER info??



  12. charmedgirl on December 11, 2008 at 9:24 am

    HOLY SHIT!!! YAYYYYYYYYYY!!!!!!!!!!!!



  13. Danielle on December 11, 2008 at 11:39 am

    I remember that feeling of my heart and mind filling up with the hope of being able to reach each and every child. THAT’S why they have those workshops, huh? I always thought it was to torture us.
    WOOOHOOO for cycling! I’m so excited for ALL of you!
    Enjoy your day and lots of HUGS!!!
    -D



  14. tash on December 11, 2008 at 12:18 pm

    You’re pretty much my underlying mantra these days too! GO!



  15. Trish on December 11, 2008 at 2:37 pm

    Moxie,
    Hooray! I am so excited for you and for Chance and Apollo! Though we are at totally different places in the process, I keep repeating the same thing to myself!
    Trish



  16. Alicia Millis on December 11, 2008 at 4:46 pm

    YAY!!!!!!!!!!!! soo exciting! I am soo thrilled for you and Chance and Apollo!



  17. anymommy on December 12, 2008 at 5:11 am

    Hurray!!!! So excited. What is Lupron? How do you take it? I hope it isn’t painful, nausea inducing or otherwise nasty!!



  18. girlh on December 12, 2008 at 10:23 am

    Moxie, the world need MORE teachers like you.
    Lupron! Saturday!? Awesome. I’m keeping all my crossables crossed.
    xo



  19. Kari on December 12, 2008 at 10:30 pm

    Good luck girls!!



  20. PJ on December 14, 2008 at 8:18 pm

    There’s something about stepping out of the classroom and bumping heads with other educators that revitalizes and inspires!