11dp3dt beta = 13
13dp3dt beta = 25
Hmm. Clearly, something is trying to fight to stay. Though the numbers are on the extremely low end of normal, there was a sufficient rise between the first and second beta and we've been told to stay cautiously hopeful. I am to remain on meds and I have another beta in a week (A WEEK? DON'T THEY KNOW HOW IMPATIENT I AM?).
I can settle for continuing to take one pregnancy test per day to serve as a gauge for what the level is doing. I wasn't altogether surprised to hear that my level had gone up since the three tests that I've taken between Tuesday afternoon and this morning have grown steadily darker. I was a bit shocked to learn that my level had increased enough to warrant another beta in a week.
Chance, bless her heart, is mostly concerned about the possibility of an ectopic pregnancy causing me even the slightest bit of agony. While it is a possibility, I don't think that's anything that we need to be majorly concerned about for at least another couple of weeks, given the fact that my beta is so low right now. Our nurse coordinator gave me the "call us immediately if you have any bleeding, cramping, or discomfort speech," and I will most certainly do so if I have any of the above.
So, my plan is just to let the next week ride out. I'll continue to test once a day. How could I not? As much as I hate it, I admit that I am a peestickitis-inflicted pissaholic. It gives me at least a very mild sense of control in these very uncontrollable situations. It is information (albeit inconclusive) at my fingertips. If the my lines continue to darken, I'll continue to have quiet, reserved amounts of hope.
Today's news was good, but the odds are still against our favor. I am at peace with the fact that this might not end well for us, but that is not my focus. My mind is filled with the knowledge that we do have this chance. We have been allowed a space and opportunity for this cycle to turn itself around, and I am choosing to focus on the realism in that and potential it provides.
It is something, and for now, I'll surely take that over nothing.
I still believe in magic.