Again

Even though this has sadly become familiar territory to me, this post is still every bit as difficult to write.

I have to start over again. But, let's not talk about me.

This is more about Miss W, who is funny and quirky and kind, and who I know will someday be a wonderful intended mother.

Infertility is unkind, and one of the worst things about it is that often, the heart and mind are ready to move forward but the circumstances surrounding you prevent you from doing so. This is especially true for surrogacy, when so much more than just timing and finances and emotional readiness have to fall into alignment. With so many things that could potentially shift out of place, it is a rare occurrence when intended parents start at Point A and move linearly to Point B(aby). As with all things infertility, there are setbacks and pauses, regroups and restarts. Things happen to you instead of you making things happen, and you're often left spinning in the inertia of the uncertainties swirling around, and you question, When will this cease long enough for me to regain control and make my move?

Someone once told me that God (or the Universe or fate or Whoever) only gives three answers: yes, no, and wait; how I hope that MissW's wait won't be much longer. Please keep her in your thoughts and prayers, that certainty and comfort will find her again.

16 Comments

  1. niobe on May 14, 2010 at 12:35 pm

    um, is it okay if I say f*ck?



  2. susy on May 14, 2010 at 1:49 pm

    Prayers!



  3. Carrie on May 14, 2010 at 1:49 pm

    Loads of hugs!



  4. a on May 14, 2010 at 1:54 pm

    I’m sorry to hear this. And, what Niobe said…



  5. Fertility Chick on May 14, 2010 at 2:39 pm

    Thinking of you both.



  6. Trish on May 14, 2010 at 3:20 pm

    So sorry for all involved! {{HUGS}}



  7. Kristin on May 14, 2010 at 4:21 pm

    I’m so sorry for both you and Miss W.



  8. Calliope on May 14, 2010 at 5:10 pm

    it just sucks and I am so sorry for Miss W and you.
    (((hugs tight)))



  9. Quiet Dreams on May 14, 2010 at 6:30 pm

    So sorry.
    Hugs.



  10. stacie on May 14, 2010 at 9:04 pm

    So, so sorry. Sending hugs and love to all of you…



  11. GeekByMarriage on May 14, 2010 at 10:58 pm

    niobe summed it up perfectly.
    Huge hugs to both of you.



  12. Alexicographer on May 15, 2010 at 12:39 am

    Oh no. I’m so sorry. I hope the wait is a short one.



  13. Wishing4One on May 15, 2010 at 3:29 am

    Double *F*… Thinking of all of you girl. xoxoxoxo



  14. k77 on May 15, 2010 at 9:30 am

    I’m really sorry to hear this.



  15. Half of a Duo, Raising a Duo on May 16, 2010 at 9:20 am

    My heart is breaking for Miss W and you.
    hugs and prayers to all of you.



  16. alsgurl04 on May 18, 2010 at 11:57 pm

    So very sorry to hear this….