Hurt Feelings

I’m just putting out there that this is how I’ve been feeling:


Even gangstas and rappers can have hurt feelings.
I can’t really get into the specifics about the situation, but I feel the need to talk about the general malaise of my heartsickness.

It sucks.

It’s not just one steely knifed stab wound that will soon dull to a throb, and then eventually scar over.

It’s more like there was a stab, and then as soon as a scab crusts over, it gets ripped off for the injury to weep and bleed anew.

And then someone pours salt in it.

And then rubs it in deep, just for good measure.

I’m being a bit dramatic, I know. I don’t for a moment believe that there was or is any malicious intent behind the actions which have caused this current state of emotional affairs. Still, a repeatedly stabbed and salted figurative heart is exactly what this feels like.

It’s a situation that is not in my court to resolve.

I can only hope that resilient scar will develop, just the same.

In the meantime, please don’t mind my tears of a gangsta.

40 Comments

  1. InDueTime on January 12, 2012 at 7:21 pm

    ((((Hugs)))) Hang in there gangsta. xoxo



    • JW Moxie on January 13, 2012 at 6:25 pm

      Thanks for the love, IDT. 🙂



  2. a on January 12, 2012 at 7:52 pm

    Tears of a gangsta…is that like tears of a clown? ‘Cause I find that song really confusing. It sounds so happy, but it’s really not. 🙂

    Hope the situation improves…it must be the time of the year for people to forget how to act right.



    • JW Moxie on January 13, 2012 at 6:24 pm

      Tears of a Clown does have a rather incongruous cheerful melody, given the lyrics. I think tears of a gangsta might run along those lines too. 🙂



  3. Baby Smiling In Back Seat on January 12, 2012 at 8:04 pm

    Sorry about the sad.

    Bret and Jemaine will make it a little better.



    • JW Moxie on January 13, 2012 at 6:23 pm

      Bret and Jemaine always make it better. So do good friends like you.



  4. luna on January 12, 2012 at 8:18 pm

    sending some love to my fave gangsta. and I agree with babysmiling, bret and jermaine always make it better. xo



    • JW Moxie on January 13, 2012 at 6:15 pm

      Thanks for the Pacific Coast love, luna.



  5. Kathy on January 12, 2012 at 8:18 pm

    Sending lots of (((HUGS))), thoughts and prayers your way. I am sorry that you are hurting. xoxo



    • JW Moxie on January 13, 2012 at 6:15 pm

      You’re always there for me, Kathy. Thanks for that. xoxo



  6. Mel on January 12, 2012 at 9:24 pm

    Sending a hug, sweetie.



    • JW Moxie on January 13, 2012 at 6:14 pm

      Thanks for being there, Mel.



  7. Miss W on January 12, 2012 at 10:58 pm

    I love you JW! **HUGS**



    • JW Moxie on January 13, 2012 at 6:14 pm

      Love you back, Miss W!



  8. Kristin on January 12, 2012 at 11:25 pm

    Hang in there my dear thugette.



    • JW Moxie on January 13, 2012 at 6:13 pm

      You hang in there, too. xoxo



  9. Jjiraffe on January 13, 2012 at 3:29 am

    Oh, no. I’m sorry to hear you’ve been sad and hurt. (((Hugs)))



    • JW Moxie on January 13, 2012 at 6:13 pm

      xoxoxo Thanks for the hugs, girl.



  10. Hellraisin on January 13, 2012 at 6:37 am

    Would it make you feel any better to know that “Maid In Manhattan” sucked? You’d think that a movie that has JLo hooking up with Lord Voldemort would be pretty epic, but no. No no no.



    • JW Moxie on January 13, 2012 at 6:13 pm

      Oh, Hellraisin. You always know just what to say to make beverages shoot out of my nose.

      I might be in lesbians with you.

      I meant in love with you.



  11. leanne on January 13, 2012 at 11:56 am

    Thinking of you and hoping things get better…



    • JW Moxie on January 13, 2012 at 6:11 pm

      Thanks for your unyielding support, leanne!



  12. Keiko on January 13, 2012 at 12:11 pm

    Thinking of you and sending you She-Ra LunchBox Awesomesauce Love, Light, and Power your way. Hang in there, gangsta.



    • JW Moxie on January 13, 2012 at 6:10 pm

      I’m hangin’, yanksta. 😉



  13. Barb on January 13, 2012 at 1:06 pm

    I’m so sorry you’re feeling crappy, but OMG we should be friends. First you wickedly post that everyone should try the Italy “Coke” drink and then you post FOTC hilarity? You’re the best.



    • JW Moxie on January 13, 2012 at 6:07 pm

      Of course now I’m thinking of The Karate Kid: “You’re the BEST…arouuund. Nothin’ in the world can bring you down!”

      Thanks for the smiles, Barb. I keep forgetting to add you to my reader. I’m going to rectify that situation right now. xo



      • Barb on January 13, 2012 at 7:20 pm

        Hahaha. We must have had similar influences growing up. Glad I could help a little. I’m not always the best at posting and commenting as I’ve finally learned to trim when the busy gets to me, so no worries.



        • JW Moxie on January 13, 2012 at 7:29 pm

          You made me laugh (hard), so that actually helps A LOT.

          I also need to get a lot better at commenting. I have to squeeze in even just the writing part of blogging, and the commenting (and sometimes even the reading) falls by the wayside. I need to prioritize reading and commenting big time, especially since I always have people who are always so quick to reach out and support me when I need it.



          • Barb on January 13, 2012 at 7:37 pm

            Yay for laughs! I’m always surprised when someone finds me funny. 🙂 I have the exact same problem. I’m learning to let it go when I need to. Otherwise I’d go (and have gone) crazy.



  14. Lily on January 13, 2012 at 4:23 pm

    Sad sucks! Hope it heals fast!



    • JW Moxie on January 13, 2012 at 6:05 pm

      Thank you, Lily. I hope the healing is swift, too.



  15. JC on January 13, 2012 at 5:44 pm

    Baby M has three new fans in Alaska 🙂



    • JW Moxie on January 13, 2012 at 5:54 pm

      Thanks, JC. The more fans there are, that’s the more good vibes there are for his health. Welcome to my blog!



  16. Sara on January 13, 2012 at 6:38 pm

    Hugs sweetie. Those knife/salt/scabs suck. I hope that the true healing begins soon.



    • JW Moxie on January 13, 2012 at 7:26 pm

      They suck big donkey balls.

      All this support from my friends goes a long way towards healing. xoxo



  17. julie gardner on January 14, 2012 at 5:12 pm

    Totally unacceptable.
    Because you are far too fabulous.

    I hope the situation turns around because not being in control of your own hurt is awful.

    But please remember you are loved. And admired. And lifted up.
    Until then. And even after.



  18. Chickenpig on January 14, 2012 at 6:54 pm

    I’m sorry to hear about your heartsickness. I’m sending you some love and good wishes that your scar forms good and strong.



  19. StacieT on January 16, 2012 at 3:13 am

    I hate that you are hurting. Sending you lots of love and many, many hugs.



  20. Friends on January 16, 2012 at 12:39 pm

    […] I am so lucky to have friends like you guys. I’m glad that I finally said something about my hurt feelings, because my posse once again came through for me. Your hugs and support were felt, and I appreciate […]



  21. andrea on January 28, 2012 at 11:04 pm

    late to the party – but I’ll kick anyone in the shin for you!